Now some might gasp at this title of this post. But read on and maybe you’ll come up with your own answer.
I’m sure none of us grow up with aspirations of leaving this world as a result of cancer. I certainly didn’t and still don’t. That said, I had an interesting meditation this morning, the result being a question: am I living a cancer life? With 10 minutes still left in the meditation, it took everything in me to continue to focus on my breath rather than to allow my mind’s gears to begin to do what they do best, think.
It wasn’t until after the meditation that I began to give the question some thought. I am not a doctor, so my beliefs about cancer are not scientifically based (but I do read). My thoughts surrounding “disease” come from my intuition. For me, yes cancer is a case of “cells gone bad.” But why? And why don’t don’t they “go back to being good.” My instinct is that it has to do with balance. That is within the mind, body, and soul. A mind or body or soul out of balance is an unhappy mind, body, and soul. We have miraculous drugs that do save people’s lives and that isn’t a small thing. That said, is the cause of disease much more subtly based?
Being a strong believer in energy, I am mindful (as best as I can) over what goes both in and out of my body. From thoughts that I think to food that I eat. My relationships and who I surround myself with can all help to contribute to an out-of-balance (and in-balance) state. So what’s the point? For me, choice is. And nowhere have I found a better way to get to a place where I can make choices than through meditation.
Some call it the zero point. The space, for me, where I can both witness my behaviors, thoughts, and feelings and also make choices based on what’s best to keep me in alignment. There is something that happens in meditation that is somewhat unexplainable, almost magical. By tapping into a space that seems “unaffected,” I am able to get clarity, and in that, a resource that allows me to make super-informed decisions.
So what does this have to do with a cancer life? For me, everything. The more in tune I am with this space, meaning acting from it, rather than against it, the happier and more serene I seem to be. And when it comes to the deciding factor over whether or not I develop cancer, coming from that space might just make all the difference.