If you’re like most people, your days are spent running around doing sometimes odd, sometimes purposeful things that hopefully amount to a life well-lived. And if you’ve been practicing meditation for a while, you know that it isn’t necessarily the specific tasks that give one satisfaction. Rather, it’s the perspective that one brings to each of life’s daily activities that matters.
Kristina Pearson pens this recent Kansas City Star post on her use of meditation to find the stillness within. Juggling not only her own life, but also the lives of her children, Pearson reminds us that regardless of the happenings in a person’s life, it’s vital that each one of us take the time at some point in our busy day to reconnect to our core.
After years of meditating, the same thing still happens, but I’m on more friendly terms with my mind. Often when I sit down, my mind is like a frisky dog off its leash, running here and there and getting into everyone else’s business. I watch patiently while it does what it needs to do; the mind has its own nature, just like a dog does.
I think when my mind does all this running around, it is actually seeking wholeness, scavenging through the past and future to find some missing piece that will bring a sense of peace or security or satisfaction. Actually, it is this splintering off — leaving the present moment in search of something more — that makes me feel less than whole. I know this in my bones, after much sitting.
When my mind is ready, I come home to my body, to the room I’m sitting in, and I finally stop. I stop making lists in my head, stop judging myself for losing my temper, stop worrying about what I ate and how little I exercised. I stop trying to be anything for anybody. I just stop. And breathe. And notice.
I notice my poor body that’s trying to keep up with this routine. I notice the roof above my head and my full belly. I notice the enormous peace I feel with all three children asleep in their beds.
The craziness will start again in the morning, but touching this stillness lets me start again from my core, from my heart, from clarity, from gratitude. I know I am raising my children to leave me, but I choose to grow with them along the way.
Read more from Pearson on using meditation to find your inner stillness here.